June 16, 2006

Craziness sets in.. On our way to the hospital my cell phone rings and when i pick up no one is there. (stupid cell phones) I try the number back and I get nothing. I am panicing inside because it's not a number i reconize but I have a feeling it is the hospital. Please don't let there be anything wrong with Aiden.. The phone rings again and it it Dr L, my heart drops, as she tells me not to panic, but... (a but, there is never anything good after a "but")
She continues on to say that Aiden's PDA is open again and he needs to go in for the surgery to fix it. The medications didn't work and they can't give him another dose because it seems to be bothering his stomach and they think it is too risky because of the bleeding he already has in his head and in conjunction with the dopamine it could cause more problems then it is solving. I tell here we are almost parked and will be up in a second. As i hang up the phone i try not to cry. My poor baby. Why is this happening to him.. It's unfair and just wrong.
When we get up to the NICU Dr L met us at the door. We went in to see Aiden and his belly was so red, I was very upset about this. They were "guessing" the medication gave him a belly infection.. Ugh. What else could happen.. So we took the final recourse we had: surgery. Fortunetly this is a relitively common procedure preformed by experts at Childrens Hospital which is connected to Brighams.
So they prepped Aiden as we sat with him for a few hours. We met the Dr doing the surgery and were reassured when he told us he had just finished doing the same procedure successfully twice already today. We went over with Aiden as they wheeled him to the OR, then waited nervously for the word he was ok and the results of the operation. About 45 mins later, the Dr came out and said everything had gone well. Aiden was brought back to the NICU to recover.
We walked back to the NICU with a little less worry and a bit of a smile. Our wee one is a trooper, he made it and will be ok. That is all we could hope and pray for and that is what we were doing.
When we got back to the NICU we had to wait a bit so they could get him situated. When we got to finally see him he looked so peaceful and down right out cold. I knew the anisteshia would do that but to see such a tiny baby like that tugs at the heart.