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Sunday, June 24, 2007

June 24, 2007

Some new Pics of Aiden and his new duds.. He's all ready for Golf with Daddy and Uncle Eddie.. lol

Saturday, June 23, 2007

June 23, 2007

Happy 2nd Birthday Chase !!

We LOVE & MISS YOU more then words can say

xoxox

Mommy, Daddy
Aiden, Morgan & Riley

Friday, June 22, 2007

June 22, 2007



It's getting to me and emotions are high. I tried so hard to get to tomorrow with out a break down, and I am sure that being pregnant with hormones raging, trying to get things ready for the move next week, and dealing with a 1yr old who is teething and not dealing very well with the fact that mommy is getting to big to pick him up and rough house is not helping.

Tomorrow is the anniversary of Chase's Birthday, which is the same day he passed. In my mind it's as fresh as if it just happened a few hours ago. Two years later and it's not any easier to think about. I miss him so much it breaks my heart. I look at Aiden and my mind constantly plays the "I wonder and what if game". Yes I know I shouldn't do that, but it's easier said then done, and if you have never lost a child then you have no idea.

The loss gets easier day to day, but you NEVER forget and you never stop missing. You never stop hurting at times like this. A parent should never have to bury a child and I would not wish this loss on my worst enemy.

My only comfort is knowing that he is at peace, he is our angel, and will never feel pain. In my heart I feel like he watches over us, and knows that we love him.

With all my heart I love you angel baby, and I send you up kisses. One day I will see you again and until then know you are forever a piece of my heart that no one can ever replace.

Monday, June 11, 2007

June 11, 2007

Aiden...

One day you may read this and i want you to know that I love you. You are the greatest gift any parent could ask for. You are my heart, my soul, and my life and every ounce of struggle has been worth the pain to have you here with us today.

Your an amazing child and i am so proud of you. You have gone through so much in such a short time and come so far. Your a happy, loving, baby who just loves people and attention.

My birthday wish for you is that you grow up always knowing I love you more then words can say. That all your dreams come true, and happiness is yours for the taking.

Happy Birthday my beautiful baby boy... I Love You Bug xoxox

Mommy








2:22PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIDEN !!!!!!!

Born June 11, 2006
Due Sept 28, 2006

1 pound 6.5 ounces
12.5 inches

Currently

1 year old
adjusted age 8.5 months

21 pounds
28 inches

Sunday, June 10, 2007

June 10, 2007






All Done MOMMY !!!

June 9, 2007

My quilt everyone signed while I was in the NICU


Our 2 NICU buddies Duane and Darius

Sitting with Daddy opening presents

Happy Almost Birthday to our baby Boy.. AIDEN !!!

Aiden's party was a blast... He enjoyed himself all day. The one day that he was held the entire time by one person or another. By the time is came down to going to bed he was so tired, but kept getting up thinking he was still missing something. It's like he knew it was his day and he wasn't letting a second go by with out him.

Cake time was a blast.. Aiden of course had his own little cake that in the begining he wasn't sure he wanted to eat it. Then he tried some and still wasn't sure. After a minute or so, he all of a sudden dug in and went for it.. He was so sure at the end and gave me this look like on mommy I'm done now, and I got the perfect picture of it..

I am sure there will be more pics as he will have cake tomorrow for his actual birthday..
June 11 at 2:22pm he will officially be a year old..

I love you but, I couldn't say it enough, i only hope I can be the best mommy for you and that all your dreams and wishes come true. xoxo

Friday, June 08, 2007

June 8, 2007

So Aiden went to the "funny head doctor" and he said that is head is not that far off from the normal. yes he has a small spot in the back but the size and shape of his head is nothing to worry about and as for a helmet he thinks in his professional opinion that it would be more trouble then it's worth for something that is not bad and has corrected so much already on it's own.

So there will be no helmet and someone agrees with me that my kid doesn't have "a funny shaped head" and it's the doctor who does this for a living and deals with children all the time that need correcting.

Other then that we are just getting all the last minute things does for his birthday party tomorrow. YAY for Aiden.. and yes I am sure I will have plenty of cake face pictures to post.

Happy Almost 1 Aiden..

We love you so much Bug!!! xoxo Mommy & Daddy

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

June 6, 2007

Ok It's official, I am tired of doctors saying my kid has a funny shaped head.. Grrrrr
His damn head is fine.. Sorry to be so rude, but enough already. First it was funny shaped when he came home from the NICU in November from sleeping on his back so much. Even though they rotate the babies, Aiden always found his spot and didn't care how they moved him. Once home he did the same for a while then started to sleep in all different positions. Now he doesn't even sleep on his back often. He may fall asleep like that for a second but 99.9% of the time he sleeps either on his left side or his right and always alternates. His head is "normal" in my eyes and he has a tiny flat spot on the back. Nothing that effects him and once he gets more hair you won't even see it. Even if he grows up and has really short hair.
Believe me I am very idiotic about things like that. i know people are mean, and so are kids and I don't want there to be ANY reason anyone can pick on my kid. Even his g-tube I cover so people don't ask questions or stare. Well questions I could handle, it people who stare and don't ask that bother me, as they would anybody I think. So if his head were odd, I'd be the first to say something. Trust me, in the NICU I commented about it all the time to Chuck, to his nurses, to anyone who saw him. No one wants a messed up melon.

NOW TODAY the neurology doctor noticed the flat spot. Ok fine, and then the 2nd doctor comes in (there is always two) and he says yes i see what you mean. He said something about this head being funny shaped and flat on the top and something about the sides.. (to be honest I was so annoyed by this it sounded like the teacher on the peanuts going whaa whaa whaa) Thank god Chuck was with us. Then they decided that he will be sent to see a special doctor who deals with helmets and kids with funny shaped heads.. (believe it or not that was the doctors words) He the asked if anyone in our family had funny shaped heads like Aiden.. Unn ok, what are you seeing that i don't. So Chuck said well i have a flat spot, and then i said my mom does too, but neither on I think looks funny. Y.ou can't even tell

AGAIN his head is not funny... I have posted a ton of pictures of him on here that people see all the time, we just saw his NICU nurse yesterday, everyone I know sees him all the time and No one thinks he has a funny shaped melon. AND the top of his head is fine, and NOTHING is wrong with the sides..

Is it me? Am I just not seeing it because it's my child? But if that is the case, why do so many other people agree with me.

So with that said, we got an appt with the "head doctor" lol this Friday. She had someone cancel on her so she put us in. If not for that it would be a few months. They have a cut off for helmets which is 12 months of age because by then it's so much harder to fix, but for a preemie they go by there "adjusted age" so Aiden still has time. Although I have talked to his E.I. worked and she knows kids older that have had helmets and they worked.

Either way I don't want him to have one but if there going to do it then I wish they would just get it done. From what I am told it would be about 8 weeks he'd have to wear it for it to "round" his head to a "perfect" head.. I can live with that.. I can't live with anymore talk of my baby having a funny head, when I think it's ok..

Ok i am done ranting..

Other then that, the appt went well. The doctor thought he was doing awesome, and right on target for his corrected age as for following and tracking things, for transfering things from one hand to the other and grabbing the things he wanted from the doctor. He said as for sitting up he seems to be getting it and with a little more time he'll do fine. With crawling he said do not be surprised if he doesn't crawl, he really thinks Aiden is going to bypass crawling and just go to walking. I guess we will see. The only other thing we need to work on his muscle tone in his legs. He has lots of muscle but is a little tight still so we got to work him out and loosen him up a bit. Being tight is common for preemies and more common with preemies who have had brain bleeds (most 24 weekers do)..

To sum it all up, he is a happy healthy baby boy turning 1 on June 11, (adjusted age will be exactly 8 1/2 months). He is a wonderful son, and loved more then anything in the world. He is a joy to us and so many people and doing things on his own time schedule as far as I am concerned. And he has plenty of time..